Fuzzy Brain

I have been trying to think of something creative to write for the last few days and nothing seems to come to mind.  This what people must call "New Mom Fuzzy Brain."  Yep, that's right....I am officially a mother to a beautiful, healthy baby boy.  Costner Cooper Bradshaw was born February 15, 2011 weighing in at 6lb 4oz.  Let me just say this...nothing prepares you for childbirth and the trying days afterward.  I was actually mad at my friends who have children for not warning me about what was to come that faithful hour when my doctor said it was time to push.  Grant it, I know experiences vary from person to person but someone should have given me heads up on how completely taxing childbirth would be on my mind, body and soul.  The utter exhaustion I felt the first few days we were home made me worry... "Is this how I'm going to feel in the months to come?"  Luckily, things do get better as your body recovers and you adjust to the lack of sleep.  

Let me be completely clear that I would go through it again tomorrow (with a few alterations) for my handsome little man.  The way my heart melts when Costner assumes the frog position on my chest and falls into a deep sleep is indescribable.  I find myself staring at him in awe of how perfect he is to me and then I wonder..."Is he warm enough?" "Did he get enough to eat?" "If he ate at 12pm, then he should eat between 2pm and 3pm?"  "Which boob did I last feed him on?"  "How can we get him to sleep in his bassinet and not on our chests?"  It is a never ending quest for the right answer.  All I can really do is my best and hope that is good enough for him.  My dad said "Whitney, all you can do is take it day by day and soon enough you'll find it gets a little easier."  That was the best advice I could have received.

Here are some pictures.....

I do want to say one last thing.  Thank you to my truly wonderful husband.  Justin, you are amazing.  You have been my rock these past two weeks.  Your unwavering support and love is incredible.  You are a master at the diaper change....his motto is swipe, swipe, dipe!!  We are so blessed to have you and I am thankful we created such an amazing son.  I love you!!  Thank you!!